Change

I'm nestled here, inside the comfortable confines of my blankets, at 3am, and unable to sleep. It has been one of those torturous nights where the body is screaming for rest, but the mind is ticking and tocking furiously away...ever alert, and bursting forward at full pace. So, in the time I've spent in an endeavour to spoonfeed some calm into the headspace, I've dug into the past and read through all the archives of my blog. It started as a search for some photos I took on holiday, and then I stumbled upon some photos from my wedding, and the rest followed...posts about what made me laugh, entries about what struck me about life that day. Things that made me cry. I could go on. It made me realize that in the past, I used to write alot more for....well, me.

This may run into the danger of sounding completely self absorbent, and I am SO sorry if it does (I promise you can throw tomatoes at this blog space next time for this hideous rearing of vanity's head. I am not normally like this :)) but, I really miss the days where I used to be able to pen down my thoughts, flesh out my dreams and wishes, and knead through my disappointments about life and love in the written word. I've realized the past year, while I love everything I've written here on this blog about weddings and the like, I write more out of love for all of you, than for myself :) Because I love you all so much! You who read this, MAKE this space what it is today. And when I don't write, those emails and messages that come in asking how I am, if I am okay, where am I, make this girl feel so special. You really are the best :)

However, in the crazy hurls that life sucks us into all too often, time and space dedicated to oneself is often warmly welcomed. Needed almost. So this week, I'm taking a little break from all things wedding related, and I'll be writing on other things and other photos. I'll be going back to my roots, and writing about the things that matter to me in life, from the big to the small. I'm going to write, because it makes me feel good. Not because I have to. I'm going to write, and this time, I'll be writing for me :)