There are those things in life that are nice to have, but you can live without. And then there are those other things that are piercing necessities. Today, one of my nice-to-haves became a piercing necessity. I'm talking about those big comforting hugs at the end of a bad day.
In my case, a bad week. And bad would be an understatement. Horrible. Unlucky. Down right rotten. Whatever negative adjective that you would like to use, that would fit in the umbrella that has been my one week I wish I could just erase.
I've had the misfortune of suffering all kinds of blows and losses this week... all of which were unintentional, but still hurt in all the nooks and crannies that existed withinin my body and soul nonetheless. Yesterday, I had to just sit, and the overwhelming frustration of everything uncertain came to a screeching peak..and boiled to the tip... and I just burst into tears. You know, the burying-your-face-in-your-hands kind of crying, because you feel absolutely helpless... in that instant, all I could conjure was a less than glorifying plea to God to lift my sailing spirits. I wish I could have prayed for something more worthy like world peace, or solving poverty, but all I could muster was - help.
As most of you may have already realized, I don't normally blog about the less than pleasant things that happen in my day to day existence, in fact, there are a lot of entries that I have written, but never pressed the published button for fear of judgement or laughter at seeing the slightly more raw and less than perfect side of this girl behind the lens. But then I think, presenting a 100% happy and positive outpour of thoughts wouldn't be very real of me wouldn't it?... and being real is important. So here's to pressing the publish button this time.
So today, to cap off a 0/10 kind of week, God answered my prayers in the little and strangest of ways that He usually does, with a hug. The 'it's going to be okay, chin up' kind of hug from Ju. It may not solve war, or poverty, or give world peace, or erase the black spots that have marred my week, but it does make me smile. And sometimes, that is enough.
Enough to muster up the strength and grin an I AM soldiering-on grin to defeat. Enough to start the whole 7 day cycle again. And enough to be better at it this time around.
Happy post, with some happy engagement photos to come in the next day or two! (fingers crossed that life doesn't get in the way again!) If you can't wait, check them out on my facebook page (you will need to add me as a friend if you have not done so already to view, so the invitation is open) :)
ps: It has come to my attention (thank you to a few clients who have persevered in trying to contact me) that some emails have not been received/sent, even though I know I HAVE sent them! - so if you have not heard from me for sometime, PLEASE drop me another email. I am tied up with appointments/shoots almost every day this week so if you cannot get my via phone, PLEASE sms me or email me at the very least. Thank you! :)